I just sometimes rant to myself... but very dark and evil thoughts? Like I'm not me anymore!? Help!?

I don't know why, but I keep whispering to myself sometimes, just ranting out all these bad and negative things about myself and about others. And I try to stop myself, but it's like I WANT it to continue, even though I know it's wrong. These words come out randomly from my mind, and I have no idea where they pop from. It's exactly like a speech, without the memorization...


I sometimes have these urges to be 'bad' as well. I don't want these thoughts, but I just... I just sometimes feel like I WANT to.


I don't know if I have to tell this to someone. Do others feel like this? What IS this?


Thanks...


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And please... no God talk and 'dude, are you taking drugs' talk, please...I just sometimes rant to myself... but very dark and evil thoughts? Like I'm not me anymore!? Help!?
I've done that before, too. And the answer isn't as simple as ';just try and think positively.'; People make it sound so easy. The best thing to do is get some help. You can talk it out with friends, or go to a school counselor who can get you access to a therapist, who will help you train your brain to think differently.





Oh, and the school counselor bit was assuming you're in school. If not, go to a doctor, who will refer you to a therapist.

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